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do you ever give talks at universities? your comment on keeping the "nick" life and "nick bantock" life just gave me a hint. one of the ongoing dilemmas in my life has been dealing with my identity; as you might have guessed already, I'm 100% japanese by blood and yet I've spent at least half of my life in the United States, away from my parents. Every year it gets harder and harder to figure out what nationality i identify myself with...in the US, i feel extremely Japanese, and when I go home to Japan, I feel my American-ness almost painfully. I am just this dichotomy, this black and white, this yin and yang, and I always felt the need to be one or the other. Maybe there's no need to choose. Maybe it's ok to be a chameleon...alternating faces. Maybe all I've been lacking is the strength to furnish 2 swords at once. or maybe i'm just young!